1. |
Goodbye for Good
03:36
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Please be ready, this part is going to sting
I’ve got to tell you everything that I believe in
And the reasons why I’m leaving
Please forgive me, you had no way to know
That I’d rather be alone tonight
Then have this fight in fifteen years
To save us from these tears
And I tried so hard, I tried to hold it back
Like a dam broke, like a bridge fell
I destroyed you as I wished you well
And I can’t give in to the world again
No not this time
Like a flare gun, like a spotlight
Like a ball of fire in the dead of night
I can’t hide what I believe
My God is the one God for me
Please believe me, this was so hard to do
I still remind myself at times that he can see us
And I hope that you find Jesus
Don’t be sorry, you have done nothing wrong
And I’d rather sing a lonely song
Than give my praise in a selfish way
And fail to obey
And I tried so hard, I tried to hold it back
Like a dam broke, like a bridge fell
I destroyed you as I wished you well
And I can’t give in to the world again
No not this time
Like a flare gun, like a spotlight
Like a ball of fire in the dead of night
I can’t hide what I believe
My God is the one God for me
If I hurt you then I’m sorry
I will still feel sick in the morning
But I can’t hide what you’re doing to me
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2. |
This Vanity
04:15
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I remember words, carefully preserved
As though their precious cargo could not bear
To taste the open air
And this vanity is like gravity, it keeps me down
It’s all about the self-control, it takes it’s toll
But when the shame takes over love dies
I love you, I need you but I don’t know why
Last night a life was offered
I have faltered one too many times
Please help me, please tell me
How did I raise the stakes to aim this low
Since you know me by now
Please help me, please tell me why
Before I do it again and hurt my friends
I remember lies, carefully designed
To find their selfish targets in my soul
That’s when I lost control
And this vanity is insanity, it makes me sound
Like I don’t have to choose a side
I’ve lost my mind but when the pain takes over love dies
I love you, I need you but I don’t know why
Last night a life was offered
I have faltered one too many times
Please help me, please tell me
How did I raise the stakes to aim this low
Since you know me by now
Please help me, please tell me why
And again I failed to send my sweet surrender
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3. |
Memento
03:41
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Seems I need this now, more than ever
Can’t remember the last time I felt so alive
I need that feeling back, I tear this photograph apart
Because I know I’m so much healthier alone
But it’s not getting any easier
I’m staring at the phone
It’s better when no one knows
And the scar from the lie still shows
So take this picture that I’ve drawn
Another face for you to try on
Of the time I fell asleep in your arms
Wake up with hands around my neck
When my happy ending
Depends upon pretending
Burn it down
I want to let this go
But this is my Memento
And anytime you want to
Let me know that you’re not happy
I’d rather know than have you hate me
Cause you’re not the only one
Whose voice is raw from screaming
All the noise that we don’t need
Salt in the wound may stop the bleeding
It’s better when no one knows
And the scar from the lie still shows
So take this picture that I’ve drawn
Another face for you to try on
Of the time I fell asleep in your arms
Wake up with hands around my neck
When my happy ending
Depends upon pretending
Burn it down
I want to let this go
But this is my Memento
And all we know is that things aren’t getting better
So we both hide out as we whether out this storm
Until we both find hope we will make each other suffer
So we go our separate way and hope our paths will cross
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4. |
Safe and Sound
04:05
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Just one more day for me to wait it out
That’s what you tell yourself at night
Just one more day for me to straighten out
Anticipating but waiting is killing me right now
And I know that it can feel like
Your body battles with a landslide
Don’t slide now
I feel them all around me
They whisper in my ear
Stay with us tonight
I will not cause I’m supposed to be right here
We buried away the things we can’t say
Better this way
Until the day we fall
Into the ground
What have we done to feel safe
Just one more way for me to let it out
Take aim at the ones you love
Just one more way that I have given up
Everything I believe for what I see
And I know that it can feel like
You will never again see daylight
Close your eyes
I feel them all around me
They whisper in my ear
Stay with us tonight
I will not cause I’m supposed to be right here
We buried away the things we can’t say
Better this way
Until the day we fall
Into the ground
What have we done to feel safe and sound
Continue to fade, the things I’ve made
Have only let me down
My god what have we done to feel so safe
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5. |
The Sweet Hereafter
03:45
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Another doubt in the back of your mind
Is about to demand that you take another life
If he’s too self-righteous to fight
Then you can never be safe
So take a shot, take your best shot
Fire away and take a hold of his name
And bring it down, bring it all down
Get in the way but we warn you
Say you’re with me, say you want a change
We understand the road, we stumble as we go
Hang on to hope, living in the sweet hereafter
With every waking breath, we take another step
We’re almost home. Living in the sweet hereafter
Another lie on the tip of your tongue
Is designed to eat away at their faith
Another dose and it seemed so simple to most
But they will never find grace
So take a shot, take your best shot
Swing and a miss and now you’re starting to fade
Bring it on, bring it on
You’re better than this and we love you
Say you’re with me, say you want a change
We understand the road, we stumble as we go
Hang on to hope, living in the sweet hereafter
With every waking breath, we take another step
We’re almost home. Living in the sweet hereafter
And I know by the things that you do you can save me
And I know by the way that you move that you’ll bring them back to you
And I know that you don’t have to prove that you love me
And I’m sorry I doubted you
Say you’re with me, say you want a change
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6. |
Shine
04:20
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I’m sorry for the advice I gave
It wasn’t my life to save
I wasn’t helping you
To try and walk the line
When I was really a slave
The lessons that I learned
Were never sanctified or burned
Into my heart, a sign
Declaring whom I serve
But you shine through me
You shine through me
I want to let it out
To you I surrender
It’s not about what I need
It’s what you want from me
I never thought it would end this way
I thought that I could save the day
But now I know that every word
Was blurred the moment that I fell away
I’m giving you control
I never wanted to before but now I know
You died to resurrect my soul
But you shine through me
You shine through me
I want to let it out
To you I surrender
It’s not about what I need
It’s what you want from me
Because my body should be hollow
I filled it up with things that I don’t need
To hide away from who I ought to be
So let this be the last that this world sees
Of the man that once was me
Let it be an offering so I can sing
And you can shine through me
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7. |
Deep Breath
04:53
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Deep breath, you’ve only seconds left
Feel the pressure building in your chest
As your lungs explode
You’ll say you did your best
To try and spread the word
Feels like no one’s ever really heard the things you’ve learned
You’ve failed them
Go and try to make things right
Even if you lose your friends tonight
You may finally get some sleep
Because you tried to save them from themselves
It’s easy just to be somebody else
Never working up the nerve to ask for help
What’s wrong with the world today
Feels like our faith is wearing away
What’s wrong with the world today
We’re capsized in the lies that kept us safe
What’s wrong with the world today
We fall till it all gets taken away
We fight, we quit, we are the hypocrites
Breath in, a chance to sink or swim
Feel the pressure building in your skin
As you fall asleep you’ll say they did you in
With all the pain they caused
Subtlety in words can lead to flaws
You will find that in your sleep you let them fall
What’s wrong with the world today
Feels like our faith is wearing away
What’s wrong with the world today
We’re capsized in the lies that kept us safe
What’s wrong with the world today
We fall till it all gets taken away
We fight, we quit, we are the hypocrites
And I’ve been caught in the undertow
Of this life but this life is all we know
It’s the frontline, it’s the battleground
For the things we left behind
And I don’t know how to get through
But I know there must be
Something that we missed
We will not last alone
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8. |
Open Water
03:03
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Last night I had this dream
There were walls around me
Concrete and bare and cold like steel
I could not breathe
That’s when the walls started to cave in
And the room got smaller
I screamed loud but nothing came out
Because the room had filled with water
I woke up and I felt the same
We are the sons and daughters
Waiting for our chances on the open water
Ready to lose it
SOS, I would gladly let you be my conscience
Take me home
Last night when I fell asleep
I was on the top of a building
Fifty stories up, the sky looked bleak and menacing
That’s when the ground gave way
And I started falling through the floor
Like a bird that broke both wings
Crying wake up, wake up, wake up
I woke up and I felt the same
If this is what it takes to be with you tonight
I’m living with eyes wide open
So give me peace before I fall asleep tonight
I’m living with eyes wide open
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9. |
A Good Night to Die
04:08
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Darkness is closing the doors
Breaking me down and exposing the source
Can’t keep this vessel on course
I need to get better at hearing your voice
I am dead, dead to the world that held my hand
Dead to the life I had
I am dead, dead but alive in you
Make me hollow, I will follow you
Just show me what to do
Saying it’s now or never
Laying my life down at your feet
Who am I tonight
Tonight is a good night to die
Sunlight is starting to fade
Casting shadows all over the plans that we made
But I’m not giving up on today
I’m bracing myself, I won’t walk away
I am dead, dead to the world that held my hand
Dead to the life I had
I am dead, dead but alive in you
Make me hollow, I will follow you
Just show me what to do
I’m laying it down
All the way down
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10. |
Spare Me
04:33
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I stare at a blank page
This town is an empty stage
Where I spit lines that are not mine
They’re not mine
By the time I try to buy
My way out with one more lie
You’ve caught me
With gun in hand
I used to be a better man
And I thought you’d understand
What it’s like to see the wall
Get closer to the car
Spare me, spare me
From the lie I have to live each day
I know that I’m to blame
Spare me, spare me
I know I will destroy myself
If I pretend to be somebody else this time
Take care if you take time
Cause I was lost
Til’ the moment that I made mine
Things will not be fine, not this time
Tread softly or you’ll bury your usefulness
You’ll see you’re stalling
You step too late
And you’re reduced to second rate
And I know you can relate
What it’s like to see them all
Conspire to raise the bar
This time I’ve got someone to hold my hand
This time I know we’ll make it better
This time we’ve got the inspiration
This time we hold the cards
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11. |
Words Just Don't
04:21
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Your eyes, they reach inside my head and teach me sight
And my mind, it races with my heart, it starts tonight
Beating softly, beating slowly
Beating everything I used to know
I could tell you but the words just don’t
I could tell you but the words just don’t
I could tell you but the words just don’t do justice
Your arms embrace me with the warmth I feel at home
Secrets known, I tried so hard to keep them on my own
I’ll sing it softly, I’ll sing it slowly
I’ll sing everything that you should know
This time I’ll be lost in the feeling
This time you’ll see why you don’t need me
I put you up on a pedestal
I put you there just to watch you fall
My expectations cutting off my oxygen
And if this helps, I did this to myself
And I regret every word I never said
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